6 hours ago
6.15.2011
Lost...
Just a little over a year ago I thought my daddy's passing was hard...I had started to heal,was beginning to feel like 'life' was alive in me again...
Now facing the fact that my mom is gone, is so incredibly sad and hard and I hurt and I cry and cry. I want to crawl into a hole and never come out...
I want a freakin do-over...I want her back! Death is final....I know I won't get that do-over...
We shared so much more than a Mother/Daughter bond....she was my biggest supporter in everything...I just feel so lost, I don't know which way is up,down,around,in,out....
I picked up my phone to call her today...her cell phone rang...on my kitchen table....
I do have great support...friends that would jump on a plane if I asked them too...friends that would leave work to come comfort me... sisters that text me...friends&family that call...a loving husband...3 beautiful children that now sadly know, how truly short life can be...yes even Jess who couldn't stand me a few weeks ago(teenagers) now wraps her arms tightly around my waist to try and keep the tears from falling....
I know time heals all wounds...I am living proof of that...well time and medication...but I am so sad right now...I am not even sure on what level I am functioning....
The one thing on my side is...Mom made sure to raise me as strong-willed....I will get through this...as I have done before...with a little help from my friends...and time....
I want to Thank you all for the emails and cards-they have been a comfort in my time of sorrow....I am Blessed truly Blessed....
My confession for today: I♥youmom so so so much
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You will get thru this, It's just so very hard right now. And when something like this happens without warning, it just makes it so much worse.
ReplyDeleteMuch Love and Big Hugs!!!
((Hugs))
ReplyDeleteYou are a tough cookie, Georgie. Life truly isn't fair.
We are still here for you, Sweetie!
It's not fair.
ReplyDeleteYour pain is palpable.
I'm glad you have a good support group in place.
Georgie,
ReplyDeleteI am so very sorry. I thought so much of your mother. She was such a sweet, caring person, who loved people!
When I started blogging, you and your mom were the first ones to actually follow me. Then I got upset when she switched from blogging to FB. But there, she was able to connect with so many more people on a daily basis.
I loved her willingness to try and make life a little better for those she cared about and the people she took care of.
She will be missed greatly.
Keeping you and your family in my thoughts and prayers.
Hugs,
Cheryl
Georgie, I don't know how I missed this before. I'm so sorry to hear about your mom. You've had way to much pain and loss. I will keep you in my prayers.
ReplyDeleteI don't know how I missed this either, but I am so, so very sorry for your loss. Praying for you during this horribly awful time. Hugs to you.
ReplyDeleteGeorgie, my heart goes out to you. Loss is a horrible thing and especially knowing that it's your mom who you cherish. I'm praying that you find your way in spite of the sadness you're feeling. I'm so very glad that you have family and friends to provide comfort and smiles. Take care.
ReplyDeleteMy heart breaks for you and I shed tears reading this. Your mom is in an amazing place right now but death is so hard for those of us left behind, missing them so much. Bear hugs to you!!!!
ReplyDeleteWhat can I say that everyone hasn't.
ReplyDeleteYou are in my thoughts and prayers daily.
Time does help, but it does take time.
Blessings and prayers to you my friend.
Melinda
Wish I had the words to say what's in my heart. And I especially wish I could give you a big hug and sit and listen to you talk about your mom and dad. I hope you'll continue to share your memories with us. Your parents sound like wonderful people--they have to be--because they created you!
ReplyDeleteBlessings and prayers for you!
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry to hear about your loss!!
ReplyDeleteOh, Georgie...My heart breaks for you!! I had no idea. It sounds like you're doing what you need to, and I'm glad your family is there for you. Oh, Honey...I will pray for you.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry for that but life is not stop !! just enjoy your life with lovely GOD ....
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i'm so sorry.
ReplyDeleteLove you, Georgie-girl. Love you.
ReplyDeleteGeorgie, I had no idea until five minutes ago. Please know you have my deepest sympathies. You have been through so much. I'm just so sorry for your loss.
ReplyDeleteOh I am SO very sorry! Your post touched me so much, as I just lost my dad (and my mom 5 years ago). I have no parents either now and I know exactly how you feel. It is so incredibly painful. I don't know at what level I am functioning either.
ReplyDeleteYour parents sound like wonderful people. If you ever need to talk, or just need a shoulder to cry on, I am here. We are in the same boat right now - a very sad one... HUGS
I'm so sorry Georgie. There is so much pain and sorrow in this world right now, and this is one of the worst to experience. I will squeeze my momma a little tighter next time I see her and think of you. Hugs.
ReplyDeleteAfter my mom died, I kept waiting for the mistake to be straightened out. Waiting...waiting...Maybe it was too long for the average person, maybe not, but it was one full year before I laughed. The sound jerked me up short because it was then that I realized how LONG my mourning had lasted.
ReplyDeleteWhen my big brother died at age 54, it was even harder because he was young, (54 IS young) and was so active. Again, I waited for THAT mistake, or joke, to get straightened out. "Time is UP! Get back here!" Is the cry of the wounded heart.
I wish I could take your pain away. I just read your mom's memorial. What a wonderful lady, she inspires me to be a better mom. I feel a void and I never met her. Take care friend.
ReplyDeleteGeorgie...I miss you!!! You have been through so much lately. We need to get together. I'm blog hopping today-no one ever told me how hard it really would be when I went to work! I love you!!!
ReplyDeleteI'm so so sorry for the heartache sweet Georgie. You're in my prayers for peace. XO Ash (Em)
ReplyDeleteI know you are grateful for the time you shared with her. Everyone has to deal with grief in their own way. Some people can cope better than others. Try staying as busy as possible with your thoughts. You are a much stronger person than you realize and will deal with your loss. I lost my mother very young. She was only 56.
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