Lost...

Just a little over a year ago I thought my daddy's passing was hard...I had started to heal,was beginning to feel like 'life' was alive in me again...


Now facing the fact that my mom is gone, is so incredibly sad and hard and I hurt and I cry and cry. I want to crawl into a hole and never come out...

I want a freakin do-over...I want her back! Death is final....I know I won't get that do-over...



We shared so much more than a Mother/Daughter bond....she was my biggest supporter in everything...I just feel so lost, I don't know which way is up,down,around,in,out....


I picked up my phone to call her today...her cell phone rang...on my kitchen table....


I do have great support...friends that would jump on a plane if I asked them too...friends that would leave work to come comfort me... sisters that text me...friends&family that call...a loving husband...3 beautiful children that now sadly know, how truly short life can be...yes even Jess who couldn't stand me a few weeks ago(teenagers) now wraps her arms tightly around my waist to try and keep the tears from falling....


I know time heals all wounds...I am living proof of that...well time and medication...but I am so sad right now...I am not even sure on what level I am functioning....


The one thing on my side is...Mom made sure to raise me as strong-willed....I will get through this...as I have done before...with a little help from my friends...and time....

I want to Thank you all for the emails and cards-they have been a comfort in my time of sorrow....I am Blessed  truly Blessed....


My confession for today: I♥youmom so so so much

Dear Mama...

What can I tell you about my mom....

She believed there was no greater thing on this earth than FAMILY... Her favorite time of the year was Christmas when she knew she would get one day where all her daughters would be in the same room at the same time.

I know this because, Thanksgiving day she and I would start our planning and brainstorming.The mere thought of buying gifts,planning the menu for Christmas day and thinking about all the fun that the day would hold made her so Happy. Over the course of the weeks leading up to Christmas she would be so excited that we sometimes talked on the phone 3 or 4 times a day, It was our time...it was our tradition...

Looking back on those times I can see her sitting in her chair looking around the room with a smile on her beautiful face, so proud of the fact that her 3 baby girls had grown into women and given her  the best gift ever...a house full of family!

She was the most giving person I have known...

There wasn't a day that has gone by that she didn't make sure we knew how much she loved us....

She loved unconditionally and boy did she love...

She was my best friend...

She was opinionated....

She had a passion for facebook and reconnected with many of her high school friends, she started a Cards for Seniors drive on FB and she was the first person to comment on a picture or status update you had made. 

She was Beautiful inside and out...

She was gracious...

She was supportive...

She was fun & funny...

She was great listener...

She was the best mother a daughter could hope for...

She was the glue that held our family together...

She was so super proud of her grandchildren and she cherished them dearly...

She had a passion for genealogy and researching her family's history...

I have a hole in my heart right now but I plan to fill it with memories of mom and over the course of time I can only hope that I become half as good as she was....

She is my Mama and I have never been more proud to say "Hey, That's My Mom!"

Dear Mom: The world just seems a little smaller now that you are gone and I honestly do not know what I am going to do with out you.... I hope you knew how much you were loved and how deeply missed you will be....

 I love you mama...

Love Georgina....

This will be my first post in 5 years where I do not have a confession to make....

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