9.19.2008

Ima Fixer

I just dropped lilest bean off at school-saw a garage sale,stopped,got out of the car,then looked down...

I was still in my PJ's and Robe-Good Gawd

It has been a long week to say the least-Daddy finished this months chemo treatments yesterday,it hit him harder and faster this month. I feel helpless when it gets to this stage of his treatments, he can't remember things and gets flustered easily. He won't eat or drink because nothing sounds good BUT you know he NEEDS to eat a lil something and drink so he doesn't get dehydrated, he is scared to eat because he thinks he will throw up-it is heart-breaking.

He is going to go home and spend one night in his own bed-LG is going to stay the night with him, then the faloozie is taking him back to Ar for a week-

This is truly the hardest thing I have ever done in my life-caring for someone who is so sick they just don't care....Ima fixer, I fix things, I want to help Daddy and take care of him. It is hard for him to let someone care for him and I know a lot of his behavior is due to the medications he took for the past 4 days-it's still hard when you wanna fix everything...

My confession for today: I'm still in my PJ's

14 comments:

  1. You deserve to be in your pj's still. I can't even imagine what that's like. I'll keep you and your dad in my prayers. Hope you have a great (and restful) weekend!

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  2. ihatecancer.

    ~hug~

    I know how hard it is, I swear I do and I know how your heart aches.
    I'm sorry.

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  3. There is nothing wrong with being in your pj's. Heck some kids wear them now as a fashion statement. You are just being trendy!

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  4. I kinda wish I could give you a big old hug, pour you some coffee, let you sit on the sofa and go take care of your daddy for you. As a fellow 'fixer' I completely understand how it feels when you can't make it better.

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  5. You wear those PJ's and be happy about it, babe. God love you for being the fixer that you are. Your daddy needs that right now whether he knows it or not. I've been down that "caring for a sick parent" road and I know it's very, very difficult. Just know that you are doing everything humanly possible for him, and that HE knows if you could take his pain away, you would. :::smooth for you today:::

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  6. Um, I meant "Smooch", not smooth. LOL

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  7. Aww hon . Sending hugs your way. Keep your head up !! I will keep you and your daddy in my prayers !!

    XoXO Deb

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  8. I hate that you all are going through this. Just know that we are all with you every step of the way. And that we love you all.
    Keep doing what you can for him and keep loving him all you can.

    {{HUGS}}

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  9. TY everyone for your loving words and thoughts.....

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  10. Keep the PJ's on. I see people all the time here at garage sales in the early morning still in theirs. You have a reason to be in yours! Rest. take care of yourself. I am still keeping you and your sweet dad in my thoughts and prayers

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  11. Oh Gdog, I wish I was there NOW! I would so garage-salin' with you in PJ's. As time goes on and it seems you and your family are the only one fighting this bad thing, never give up. The patient is too sick and too weak to fight. That's the hardest part, not the driving to appts, cleaning up sickness, no sleep. The fight is impossible to do alone. Cling tight to your family and to us for support and know we are here for you to vent and recharge your weary bones. We love you.

    P.S. It's perfectly normal for you to even be angry with your daddy if he seems like giving up. Just tell him YOU aren't giving up and that's that. Then give him a kiss.

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  12. Aww I'm sorry Georgie! I'm sending good vibes your way. *Huggies*

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  13. OMG! First you made me laugh. Now I want to give you a big hug.....

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  14. georgie, I wish I could give you a big hug. I'll be praying for your Dad and your whole family 'cause I know his illness affects everyone. Hang in there.

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